I know I have signed off, but before doing that, I have to relate my experience today. I won't go into too much details as the lady in question has agreed to write briefly about her life experiences. As I was walking along Orchard Road - a rare sight you may say - someone grabbed my arm and said she was glad to see me. She turned out to be a trans woman who had written to me some months ago to encourage me to press on. We stopped by the IndoChine cafe for drinks and we had a brief but in-depth discussion. I have never felt much of a connection to local trans women before - that said, I do not have many local trans women contacts - but her story and experiences really touched me, especially when she related how her father used to flog her until she bled, and her grandmother would drag her to a corner and try to soothe her pain away, while consoling, "It's ok to want to be a girl, just be a morally upright girl." That was the turning point for her and she stopped parading at Changi village. Every year, this lady would visit her grandma's grave in Malaysia, and each visit would be particularly poignant because when the latter passed away, this lady's mother refused to let her attend the funeral because of the "state she was in".
If you are a trans woman reading my blog, and if you need the strength to carry on, then think of the one person who was the kindest to you when you were down, and let this person's kindess give you the strength and belief to carry on.
You are good enough now.
You are strong enough now.
You are courageous enough now.
Carry on magnificently and beautifully.
Merry X'mas!
Leona
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A fingerprint, an awakening was left behind when we parted IndoChine. It is the realization that materialism no longer holds value, any cosmetic surgery to look better no longer matters, is the time you're the most beautiful.
I miss you grandma.
Mind Circus? I love your pen name. I believe you are a gifted writer - so please write. Not everyone can convey poignant emotions through words. I write well when I'm emotionally highstrung - but I'm not often in this state these days - fortunately!!! So keep writing. Don't let the lack of paper qualifictions stop you. When you open your heart to the abundance of the universe, and allow thoughts of peace and love to flood you, and allow life to treat you well, trust life, believe in its beauty, you will see a dramatic turnaround in your life.
You have a guardian angel in your grandma.
Leona,
Time to take that well deserved break.
One of the pitfalls of activism is that you can get so emotionally wrapped up in fighting for everybody else (and yourself) you sometimes forget to take time out to just be YOU.
Somebody will step up to the plate in Singapore and pick up where you left off.
Merry Christmas, Sis.
MindCircus,
Your grandmother was absolutely right. You honor her memory (and yourself) by being the best woman you can be.
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